It's been hard to get back to "normal"

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Probably because I have never really known "normal" for several years now.  When I first started writing my blog it was to advocate for my children having special needs and to raise awareness for their disabilities.  Then things were calm for a while and I started entering giveaways and then doing reviews myself.  I liked doing this.  It was something that made things seem "normal". 

Then we get stays in the hospital, and worsening of conditions.  Then back home again.  How do you go back to what seems "normal" when you realize it never really has been.  I have always been the strong one, the positive one....but also the one that tucks my feelings inside so that others stay strong.  Maybe for my health I should express those more often.  I actually fear how others will react if I let my feelings out more.  I hate to alienate even more people, because either they don't like how I feel, or they don't know how to react to how I feel.  I also hate the other side of it too....getting too much attention.  I like people to just have "normal" conversations. 

So that being said....if I start expressing more of my feelings here...dont run away...dont feel you need to say anything either.  Also believe me I am such a mixed bag of emotions lately (and a woman) that I may say one thing one day (or minute) and then say the opposite the next. 

Also for those that are typically here pretty much just to enter a giveaway, I am sorry, but I feel like these will definitely be much less.  I am just not "feeling" it lately.  I do have some items to tell you about that I have used recently, but overall they are going to be less.  I just dont have the physical time or emotional time to do some of these tasks. 

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